urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee ayu_mee ayu_mee 2005-05-17T16:34:36Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:12268 2005-05-17T16:34:36Z 2005-05-17T16:34:36Z he's back!<br />ok lah im hapi, coz he's safely hm, dat is<br /><br />he touched down at 7+am on sunday morn` n called me twice at 10am wen im still asleep<br />so he called again at 11am, i was half awake, bt still tossin n turnin in bed<br />so i answered d fon, wid my sleepy voice n was greeted wid a loud 'HELLO!! GD MORN'!!'<br />i cannot fall back to slip aft dat<br /><br />so we mit up at ard 7pm to hv dinner tgdr wid aishah n amri<br />at Ambrosia, wer we 'bumped' into rye n frenz<br />hah!!<br /><br />it was a nice outin, i muz sae<br />he started tellin me all abt Brunei, n i jz listened n let him talk<br />it was nice to jz c him talk so much aft so long<br />for d 1st time, seriously, der was no weirdness, awkwardness or butterflies<br />i was so at ease, i don even noe hw to begin describing it<br /><br />i gez iam +vely sure dat iam so comfortable d way we r nw<br />no strings attached, no promises, no 'mkn2 hati' anymore<br />ahakz!<br /><br />dis is obviously d best for us<br />n i believe dat wen u fail at smtg, GOD is jz tryin to tell u to tk a diff direction altgdr<br />so we r takin a diff route nw, stayin frenz, n will alwayz b<br />which has proved to b at d best interest 4 d both of us<br /><br />wen 1 door closes, another 1 opens<br />im js glad. ;-) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:11902 2005-05-13T08:04:40Z 2005-05-13T08:04:40Z iam officially jobless, all over again, as of todae<br />bleargh<br /><br />i wont expect d col, alto i wan it to happen so much<br />coz i tink d more u expect smtg to happen, d more disappointed u'll b<br />my prinsip in life is.. 'do nt expect! if it happens, it happens.'<br />so if d fon rings n d no. pops up wid d gd news dat iam selected, i'll b GLAD<br /><br />i noe i shd b lookin for a REAL job<br />dats wat my sis has been tellin me<br />ok lah i noe wat she meant by a real job<br />sumplz wer i cn c myself stayin for long<br />n dat seriously gt me tinkin... <br /><br />n nw im scared. reli scared. :-( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:11720 2005-05-11T17:37:05Z 2005-05-11T17:37:05Z <p><font size="4"><u>'The women have it better..'</u></font></p> <p><font size="4">While we may think <em><font color="#ff0000">men</font></em> have it easier after a break-up, research shows that they may actually suffer more. When men are in intimate relationships, they open up their innermost and repressed emotions, and when they're going through a break-up, they tend to hide their pain, which can lead to physical&nbsp;breakdown (migraine, fatigue, etc,). <em><font color="#ff0000">Women</font></em>, on d other hand, often share their suffering and surround themselves with friends and family to help them through, making the difficult time easier to get through.</font></p> <p><font size="4">i find dis&nbsp;SO true. so yeah.....</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:11445 2005-05-07T17:38:43Z 2005-05-07T17:44:12Z iam super depressed ar<br /><br />1 reason to b smiling abt..<br />was wen my beloved gfs remembered d dae im startin dis new job n was bz askin me hw did my 1st dae went n all<br />itz alwayz nice wen frenz tk time to remember small lil tings like dis which neva fails to mk me smile<br />takes off a lil bit of d sadness, even for a while<br /><br />1 mmt i was so excited to b startin wk at Indivi, n cant wait to leave Evita..<br />BUT onli to b disappointed?<br /><br />wen i start wk on thurs, dat klasmate of mine, d trainee manager at Indivi, broke d news to me abt d 'commission rate' der<br />n i remembered hw shock i was, which was quite humourous wen i tink back<br />we cd even laugh at it nw. hah!<br /><br />so d deal is..<br />iam gona b bringin hm jz my basic coz itz fuckin hard to hit d sales tgt at dat damn plc, so means 0 comm.<br />dat klasmate of mine hv been der for 6 mths, as trainee manager (may i repeat), n she neva brought hm any comm dis whole time, onli her damn basic, -CPF of coz (she brought hm abt 1.2k a mth?)<br />so she totally understand y i wasnt gona stay <br />so im gona b bringin hm less dan 1k a mth, which is super rubbish, n im nt use to bringin hm dat kinda amt<br />i cd bring hm abt 1.2k at Evita a mth, jz as a damn promoter<br />bt at dis damn plc, as a trainee supervisor, i will b bringin hm less dan 1k?<br />so iam nt gona waste my time, or theirs, any longer<br />so on thurs itself i tendered. haha<br />bt since i had oredi signed d damn apptmt letter, i nid to serve at least a week notice<br />so deal. <br /><br />1 week starting 5th, my last dae is next thurs-12th<br /><br />pathetic huh?<br /><br />i was so ghairah to leave Evita coz i tot i cn earn more at dat damn plc, since d plc is considered 'high end'<br />bullshit ar!<br /><br />so nw i hv nobody to blame bt myself, for nt doin enuff research b4 startin a new job n gettin all excited for no reason<br />oh well.. u neva noe wat u gt till itz gone.<br />ahakzz!!<br /><br />bt i do believe tings r d way dey r for a reason. d signs r everywer. sumtimes we jz refuse to look.<br /><br />so open up ur eyes AYU!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:11066 2005-05-01T15:51:51Z 2005-05-01T15:54:20Z yest was my last dae wid Evita<br />n worst was wen zahida gt a transfer to suntec startin todae<br />so yest was quite an emotional dae for d both of us<br /><br />im nt suppose to stop wkg till d 4th, bt i gt to offset my PH claim n gt an early leave<br />which means i hv a long rest b4 i start my new job at Indivi on d 5th!<br />zahida's case was worst cos she wasnt expectin a transfer to suntec, so she was upset, veri<br />alto itz onli been 3 mths+ im in Tangs, i tink im gona miz bein der..<br />- d grouchy aunties, <br />- d irritating security, <br />- d mentel abg2 despatch/delivery, <br />- d horrible makcik food at d canteen, <br />- n d staff lounge esp, wer we spent most of our time sleeping<br />nw.. itz like 1 by 1, d gerlz all slowly, tk turns, to leave Tangs<br />haha itz reli weird, bt we r all still veri much in contact wid each other<br /><br />i hope my 1st dae at Indivi will go well, noein d fact dat i'll b wkg wid a klasmate<br />duno if i shd b hapi or glad <br />bt i wont tink so much n gt all worried for no reason<br />alwayz look on d brighter side ayu, alwayz. <br /><br />c'',) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:10967 2005-04-27T16:01:35Z 2005-04-27T16:01:35Z neva tot i cd shed another tear for him<br /><br />wasnt expecting i wd tk it dis way, bt ive been cryin a lot since yest<br />he's leaving for brunei in a few mins time<br />for 3 weeks, will b back on d 15th<br /><br />wen was d last time i cried for him?<br />mths back sakk<br />n yest while hvin my brk at CK canteen, i jz broke down<br />i was jz tinkin abt tings n started to feel my eyes watery<br />den tears jz flowed n it wont stop once it starts<br />so i did nt finish eating, quickly ran to d washrm n dry my tears<br />bt dat didnt help, coz i continued cryin in d cubicle<br /><br />he asked me to supper on mon nite, bt i wasnt feelin dat well, bt i told him i wd mk an exception<br />so we decided to mk it at 12am bt den i felt so weak n tired dat i told him we cd mk it d next dae instead<br />he gt a bit mad bt i managed to 'pujuk' him<br />den worst is wen he came over my plc yest at 2am w/o tellin me b4hand, he tot i'd b awake still, bt im oredi asleep, so soundly, dat i didnt feel my fon vibrating beside me<br />i woke up dis morn` jz to b greeted wid missed calls n a msg..'im under ur blk, bt gez ur asleep. im off..'.<br />like y cldnt he tell me he'll b dropping by? <br />i swear i wd stay up<br />i was so mad bt i cldnt bring myself to blame him any further coz he made d effort <br />bt gawd!! <br />me: 'y do u hv to surprise me like dat at d wrong time? do u noe hw much i wana c u?'<br />n yahh, i do wana c him.. badly.<br /><br />i gt so sad tinkin of so many tings:<br />- of hw we were wasting d past crucial daes debatin n arguin abt tings, instead of bein nice n treasurin d last few mmts<br />- of hw he was makin d effort to mit up b4 leaving, which did nt happen<br />- of all d msgs he sends, gd or bad<br /><br />i wont tink so much coz itz onli 3 weeks, n 15th will cum soon enuff<br />i'll jz pray for his safe trip n safe return, dat is all i wan<br /><br />he told me he brought my photos along to brunei<br />dats 1 reason to b smilin, coz i noe he'll b tinkin of me jz as im tinkin of him<br />another reason to b smiling abt is d msg he sends to zahida.. 'kip ayu hapi at wk for me. thx..'<br />n zahida goes.. 'ayu.. u noe he cares.. u noe it..'<br /><br />im smiling nw, n im nt stopping... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:10529 2005-04-22T04:59:17Z 2005-04-22T04:59:17Z i had a major blow up on wed<br />zahidah was der to witness it all<br />no other single person has been more disrespectful to me dan he has.<br />n dat was d final straw. FINAL.<br /><br />GOD.. gimme strength. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:10370 2005-04-18T16:01:56Z 2005-04-18T16:01:56Z <div style="MARGIN-LEFT: 30px"> <p><font size="4">itz my off dae n i kinda waste it in bed<br>i woke up SUPER late, coz it was rainin, n dats d more reason 2 still stay in bed rite? ahakz!<br>wen i woke up, i was greeted wid dis msg which was send to me reli early in d morn`, ard 7.26am..<br><font color="#ff0000">him</font>: we're both adults rite, so we shldnt tink abt it, we've known each other for so long, n shldnt spoil it wid wat we had dat short time. gd morn`..<br><font color="#ff0000">me:</font> don gimme dis kinda msgs anymore n try tellin me wat to do. im big enuff to tink for myself. i noe watever i do is for my gd n i don give a shit abt other ppl. Bye.<br><font color="#ff0000">him:</font> hmmm.. wats wrong wid u? insensitive.<br><font color="#ff0000">me:</font> dis will b my last msg k. don waste ur time, coz seriously i wont waste mine. tk cr in brunei.<br><font color="#ff0000">him:</font> huh? i don understand. i gez u woke up at d wrong side of d bed. u tk cr too den. </font></p> <p><font size="4">tk biadap tu? tapi kadang2 kelakar jugak ar kn dier nyer reply. bodoh!!<br></p></font> <p><font size="4">iam so shuttin him outta my life ar. i had to do it. i had to. i had to!</p></font></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:10144 2005-04-17T16:56:10Z 2005-04-17T16:56:10Z hw do i tell u to gt d fuck outta my life eh?!<br />like seriously ar dude! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:9982 2005-04-15T17:43:05Z 2005-04-15T17:47:28Z had an awesome time at sentosa wid d Tangs gerlz yest!<br />it was my dae off, as well as sarina's, so we decided to go gt sum tan<br />den d other 4 gerlz membontot - noor, fitriah, hamidah n zahidah<br />zahidah, my beloved colleague at EP, took MC jz so she cd join us yest, wen she was suppose to wk full shift<br />giler ar itu pompan sanggup amik MC sumer, coz she gt soooo jeles noein we're goin w/o her<br /><br />so our EP counter was empty on thurs, for d 1st time. ahakz!!<br /><br />den wen i came back to wk todae, ppl ard were askin.. 'eh y ur counter empty ar yest..?'<br />hhahahahaa!<br /><br />i hvnt had dat much fun in a while, n it was a well deserved brk, 4 me, at least<br />we were d loudest der, laughin hysterically at each other's stoopid antics<br />playin our own so-called 'water sports', so mrepek bt farkin funnie!<br />den i was FORCED to sing for dem, coz for sum stoopid reasons dey adore my voice (ok wadever)<br />den ders dis part wer we took turns to tell each other our ghostly encounters<br />bt i decided we shd stop sumwer since sentosa is nt dat 'clean' itself<br /><br />d best part is wen all 6 gerlz were standing in a str. line in d toilet, facin d mirror, n dancin to 'oye mi canto', while puttin on our make up<br />everybody movin to d same raggae style, it was madness!<br />ya i noe.. sungguh kental ppl may sae, bt i don care!<br />coz it was so much fun ar!<br /><br />gona mit noor n sarina again tmr for flea mkt<br />n i will so bug zahidah to cabot again n join us (evil me)<br /><br />farid wans to mit up tmr too, bt i cldnt b bothered, seriously<br />been wanting to mit up since tues bt i didnt layan<br />shd i or shd i nt mit him..........?<br /><br />decisions.. decisions.. decisions.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:9694 2005-04-07T16:51:21Z 2005-04-07T16:51:21Z rushed hm for d OC <br />n was super glad i was in time for it<br />aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh<br /><br />thurs is nw my official fav dae of d week coz of d OC<br />n sumhw i so luv dis particular line summer said to seth..<br />'it seems u alwayz wan me wen u cant hv me..'<br />n so in my head i continued sayin.. 'n u don wan me wen u had me..?'<br />aint dat funnie hw bizarrely true dat line is?<br /><br />n summer n seth r soooooo engaged in real life siol. <br />damnit!!<br /><br />anywayzzz..<br />iam reli hapi coz ive finally purchased my DKNY-Be Delicious perfume todae!<br />i freaked out wen i was told dat d 100ml dat i wanted was sold out onli aft 4 daes of d launch<br />all d 15000 sold out?<br />so i like begged d kakak to find me jz 1 more 100ml bottle, which she eventually did<br />it cums tgdr wid d small 10ml miniature, body lotion, a shampoo n 2 green apples (my fav fruit!)<br />n i gt an additional 20% off as staff purchase<br />sungguh seronok! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:9223 2005-04-06T09:12:57Z 2005-04-06T09:36:06Z <p>'ur my biggest problem..'</p> <p>'dude.. ur my <font color="#ff0000"><strong><u><em>BIGGEST MISTAKE</em></u></strong></font>..'. HUGE. period.</p> <p>'n ouh.. dis song is so.. for u.. enjoy..'</p> <p>----------------------------------------------------------------</p> <p><font color="#000000">Artist :</font><font color="#000099" size="4"><strong> Akon</strong></font></p> <p><font color="#000000">Song : </font><font color="#000099" size="4"><strong>Lonely</strong></font></p> <p><font size="4">Lonely im so lonely,<br>I have nobody,<br>To call my owwnnn<br>Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely<br>I have nobody, <br>To call my owwnnn<br>Im so lonely, <br><br>Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there man ya kno dey got that one good girl whose always been there like ya<br>Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave<br><br>I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was<br>Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz<br>Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin<br><br>Im so lonely (so lonely),<br>Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)<br>I have nobody (I have nobody)<br>To call my own (to call my own) girl<br><br>Im so lonely (so lonely)<br>Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)<br>I have nobody (I have nobody)<br>To call my own (to call my own) girl<br><br>Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck<br>Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I<br>Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl<br><br>Im so lonely (so lonely)<br>Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)<br>I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)<br>To call my own (to call my own) girl<br><br>Im so lonely (so lonely)<br>Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)<br>I have nobody (I have nobody)<br>To call my own (to call my own) girl<br><br>Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through<br>Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u<br>Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me<br>Be so happy but now so lonely<br><br>So lonely (so lonely)<br>Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)<br>I have nobody (I have nobody)<br>To call my own (to call my own) <br><br>Im so lonely (so lonely)<br>Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)<br>I have nobody (I have nobody)<br>To call my own (to call my own) girrll<br><br>Never thought that id be alone, I didnt think you'd be gone this long, I jus want you to call my phone, so stop playing girl and<br>Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished to ever<br>Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...<br><br>Im so lonely (so lonely)<br>Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)<br>I have nobody (I have nobody)<br>To call my own (to call my own) <br><br>Im so lonely (so lonely)<br>Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)<br>I have nobody (I have nobody)<br>To call my own (to call my own) girll<br><br>Lonely, so lonely<br>So lonely, (so lonely),<br>Mr. Lonely, so lonely<br>So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely</font></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:9078 2005-03-30T18:05:49Z 2005-03-30T18:05:49Z Hapi B'dae fanabelle!!<br /><br />may u stay hapi wid fafan boi n cant wait 4 d chalet dis sat!!<br /><br />also belated bdae to zali, matty n fiza - on d 24th, 26th n 27th respectively.<br /><br />n hapi advanced bdae to zahidah darlin' a.k.a Miss Mocha (if ur readin dis) - aper kau nk dis yr..? don sae irwan eh!! haha! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:8730 2005-03-27T16:52:49Z 2005-03-27T16:52:49Z i was der to witness d accident dat took plc on fri aft<br />abt d future groom dat gt hit bt d train at Buona Vista stn<br />i was 1 of d passengers in dat unlucky train<br />n i swear i 'dah mcm trauma' nk tk train nw ok<br /><br />i remembered goin to wk lookin pale<br />n my head was askin me stoopid qns like.. 'y cant dis happen aft dis train im in left?!'<br />coz seriously, doesnt he noe dat ders a train cumin wen he went down to gt his shoe?!!!<br />bt den again, like my mom said, dats jz an 'excuse' 4 him to die dat way, dat day<br /><br />d worst ting is.. he's goin to nikah in 2 weeks time seh.....<br /><br />so i ended up turnin up 4 wk late coz we're kept in d train 4 abt 15 mins<br />wid no air-con, thk u<br />den everybody started callin whoever it is dat dey wana tell dis horrified news to<br />i called hm, n i feel like a little gerl all over again dat nids embracing fr her mom in times like dis<br />den i called zahidah to punch my card 4 me, n of coz let her noe of my situasi<br /><br />u'll neva noe wen accidents cn happen ar<br />it cn jz hit u anywer, anitime<br />even wen u least expect it<br /><br />scary. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:8473 2005-03-22T16:24:22Z 2005-03-22T16:38:48Z so i told erd, rkl, n rye abt d 'stoopid proposal' tingy<br />itz fuckin embarrassing actually n i wasnt sure if i shd let any of my gerlz noe abt it coz i noe dey'll laugh at me<br />(bcoz itz reli mrepek lorr!)<br />n itz horrible wen ur frenz laughed at u abt tings<br />Aaaarrghh!!!<br /><br />anywayzzz...<br />i hope ryehan will b ok soon enuff<br />itz reli sad to c u in dis state babe<br />jz remember we all cr n luv u <br />hang on in der<br /><br />n ouh! <br />zali d bestfren called jz nw!<br />n at d same time matty msged to tanyer kabar<br />sungguh rindu at d 2 botakz!!<br /><br />zali is sick n was complainin abt life in der<br />baru 2 minggu dah nk complain. haha!!<br />n matty mcm nk mati rindu gf, sooooo swittt<br />n sumhw, i gt flashback wen i was in d respective gf's position, back den<br />d rindu is indescribable n im nt exaggerating, at all<br />u'll b waitin 4 nitetime to cum coz den u'll gt to hear their voices all over again<br />every single dae, w/o fail, dey'll col<br />n don mention d book out dae, u'll so b excited dat u wldnt slip well. haha!<br />n sumtimes u jz miz dem so much dat u cn jz cry<br />ok lah, dats me, at least<br />yeahhh.....<br /><br />zali's n matty's bdae is cumin real soon!<br />dey're both equally hapi dat dey'll gt to book out dis thurs so dey cn celebrate wid gfs<br />aaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwww<br /><br />ok gota turn in nw <br />tmr full shift, again<br />bleargghhhhh! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:8367 2005-03-20T07:02:20Z 2005-03-22T15:39:21Z <p>yest at wk..<br>him: 'hmm... i miz u...'<br>me: 'hmm.. i miz u too, bt gez wat?.................'<br>so i told him d news, reli glad dat i did actually<br>he didnt tk it too well tho<br>he said..'i was shocked.. jeles in a way..'<br>n i felt so darn gd dat i cn jz kiss myself</p> <p>he said he hope i wasnt lyin<br>den i said..'wd i b so pathetic as to mk smtg like dis up..?'<br>den he went *speechless*</p> <p>i told him nt to tink abt it coz itz nutin reli (n seriously, it is nutin lor!)<br>him: 'hw cn u sae itz nutin?! i feel smtg which im nt suppose to express to u..'<br>like WTF?<br>me: 'pls jz sae watever u wana sae. itz nt as if we hvnt noe each other oredi..'<br>him: 'im nt in d position to sae dis kinda stuffs to u anymore..'<br>me: 'watever lah eh. bye.'<br>him: 'col me if ur free'<br>me: 'tk free ar. bye!'<br>him: 'thanks.'</p> <p>i enjoy our conversation like dis ar, don ask me y, i jz do<br>den later in d nite..<br>him: 'don nid to argue, col me..'<br>me: 'ouh u mean if col, ders a slimmer chance we wont b argue-in? itz ok lah eh, lets jz save ourselves d misery. gd nite..'<br>him: im tokin 2 u nicely seh. if u care, col k. fuck it if u don. dat simple..'</p> <p>den i silent my fon n went to slip.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:7334 2005-03-19T17:03:07Z 2005-03-19T17:03:07Z a chg cd reli do u gd lah, ma` fren<br /><br />seriously. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:7162 2005-03-08T04:38:06Z 2005-03-08T04:38:06Z im so fuckin mad ar!!<br /><br />my shoe was stolen ok!<br />my fav new shoe i gt for wk was stolen!<br />fuck dat Tangs staff who did dis ar!!<br />kaninabuayyy!!!<br /><br />my 'nice' manager gave me dis Novo shoe for wk<br />n i was super2 hapi coz i wanted to buy dat shoe at 1st<br />bt wen she told me i cn gt it for free as pt of my uniform, i was esctatic!<br />i wore it ONLI TWICE, den on sun, wen i go to wk, itz gone!!!!!<br /><br />i had nobody to blame bt my stoopid self<br />kenaper lah aku bodoh pegi tinggalkn kasot baru cam gitu pat keje eh?<br />kenaper bodoh ayu?!!<br />yeahh.. all dis qns were running thr my head n i hv onli myself to blame<br /><br />my dearest frenz at wk helped me search high n low for d shoe bt to no avail<br />den dey join me wid all d cursing.. 'biar org yg curi kasot kau tu kene langgar lori tros kodong kaki dier eh!!'<br />haha dats so mrepek bt it helped a bit at dat pt of time<br /><br />i was such in a foul mood dat sun dat i feel goin hm<br />bt wid d comfort of d gerlz, i calm down a bit<br />Aaargghhh!! jz tinkin of it nw makes 'my blood go to my head'!<br />if old shoe nvm sakkk, nie new shoe sial!! wore onli 2 times!!<br /><br />i cn jz go on n on abt dis coz im still pissed, seriously!!<br />MY FAV SHOE SIAL!<br />ok ayu.. 'itz jz nt meant to b urs in d 1st plz.. so gt over it!!'<br /><br />on a lighter note..<br />met up wid Hafiz Pinholes yest aft wk<br />n poor him, gota listen to my whinings<br />bt he's a gd listener so i don mind complainin ar<br />he ask me to buy a new pair <br />tink i shd oso, coz if my manager drop by n c me w/o d shoe, she's gona flip<br />so nw i ended up payin for it instead.. 'MAKAN HATI' sakkk!!<br /><br />AaaaarrrrgggghhhhHH bodohh!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:6843 2005-03-02T16:50:03Z 2005-03-02T16:50:03Z gt hm fr wk to b greeted wid a reli hapi hapi news<br />den i went to my rm n started cryin<br />tears of joy, dat is <br />im jz so overjoyed n it md me emotional <br />cant wait to spread d news<br />coz gd news r suppose to b shared, rite?<br /> <br />c'',) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:6644 2005-03-01T16:31:08Z 2005-03-01T16:35:32Z JJ won d Manhunt search! woohoo!!<br />ok lah im a bit late<br />i luv JJ bt i wanted Rob to win instead, coz his spirit is stronger dan JJ's, n he looks like he wanted dis more, bt wad d heck, JJ's HOTTER!<br /><br />met up wid raaks yest<br />i had fun, seriously<br />n rkl, bein rkl, tried to irritate me by sayin.. 'heii itz us again..' haha!<br />n onli me, will gt dat. damnit.<br /><br />went to Ambrosia<br />had d 16 bux sheisha, yes<br />bt no complaints watsoever coz it was guuuuddddd<br />n we gt sum complimentary food fr d nice ppl der<br />so we made a promise to go der every week! haha<br /><br />glad dat we had d tok yest kel<br />was shocked to hear wat u gota sae, n i reli feel u<br />bt watever it is u decide to do, u noe we'll all b behind u<br />jz stop pressurizin urself coz for goodness sake! UR ONLI 20!<br />n u don wana hv so many worries at 20!!<br /><br />n ouh! jz to add..<br />Sarah Sechan went to Tangs yest! (sorie lah, bt i like her so im a bit excited!)<br />me n d Tangs gerlz took a pic wid her! <br />she was as small as me n she was so nice n funnie lah!<br />she was wid her baby, sooo kiut (i duno she had a baby seh)<br /><br />ok im in lurve wid Peter Pan's frontman - Adil izit d name?<br />watever d name is lah eh<br />haha<br /><br />dahhhhhhhhhh urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:6294 2005-02-27T17:34:06Z 2005-02-27T17:36:07Z had onli 4 hrs of slip yest<br />gt hm at 4+ in d morn` fr d pit on sat<br />n d best ting is.. d next dae, SUN, i gota wk at 10am!!<br />makkkuzz! who wks on sun sakkk?!<br /><br />ive neva felt dis sleepy for a long time<br />i cn hardly open my eyes at wk ar<br />n i tink itz written all over my face <br />coz everybody was askin.. 'ayu, didnt u gt enuff slip yest..?'<br />haha. jz wen i tot d make-up wd cover, a bit, at least<br />but no, thk u<br /><br />wen to mit zali, farid, ah seng n fiza aft wk<br />was dead tired bt still wen on 2 mit dem coz i hvnt met dem for mths<br />it was a nice gt tgdr session i muz sae<br />stories aft stories unfold<br />we were laughin at zali's nonsense, as usual (n i reli nid dat btw, to kip me awake)<br />farid was bein his usual irritatin self, exchgin sarcastic remarks wenever i tok<br />n i jz gave him d 'tok-to-my-hand' tingy rite in front of his bloody face n go.. 'eh diam ar farid!'<br />n d rest go.. 'sudah tk payah gadoh.. tk payahhhhhh..'<br />haha! bt yahh overall it was fun<br /><br />k nw i gota force myself to slip <br /><br />dahhhhhhh urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:6137 2005-02-20T21:23:07Z 2005-02-20T21:23:07Z <p><font size="4">iam half sad n hapi todae</font></p> <p><font size="4">gota col fr him in d afternoon, tellin me he's no longer usin his fon coz.. he was robbed. on fri. at clarke quay. apparently, he was out partyin n was dead drunk dat he fell asleep, n wen he woke up, all his shit was gone. i jz go like.. 'hah! dat feels gd to noe, padan muke kau! suker kn?!'. den he regretted tellin me coz i wasnt feelin sorie for him. bt y shd i anyway? BODOH!</font></p> <p><font size="4">we talked for a 'long' 30 mins. i&nbsp;was at wk n i'll b dead if im caught usin d fon. bt kau punyer pasal eh, aku sanggup cabot a while, coz he bleteh2 wen i said i cant use d fon den</font></p> <p><font size="4">we had a lot to tok abt w/n dat short pd of time. </font><font size="4">we were debating abt 'our' situation n ended up squabbling. den he still has d audacity to ask.. 'eh we're nt quarelling abt dis rite..?' BODOH!</font></p> <p><font size="4">he was askin hw am i doin? am i in luv? den i said..'even if iam, u wont b hearin it fr me..'. i jz don c d nid to tell him, esp., if iam seein anybody else. if he noes, he noes. ok yah, dats ego alrite. hah. </font><font size="4">he asked wen r we mitin up again? den i go..'u wana mit me..?'. den he said..'y nt sehh..?'. den i replied.. 'takya jumper ar. kat telipon dah sakit hati, nanti jumper lagi mkn hati..'. haha dat is so rubbish ayu</font></p> <p><font size="4">n he was tellin me hw his life was still all abt me. wid ppl everywhere still askin abt us. den i said.. 'yah, y it seems everybody noes abt us ar..? mcm besar nah hal nie seh..?'. so mrepek ar. n hw i was d topic of discussion dat pt of time btwn him n his frenz. apaper lah eh mamat</font></p> <p><font size="4">n ouh! he told me he jz gt 2 noe dis gerl. sum1 i noe too. he didnt wana tell me who she is in d 1st plc. bt i noe ways n means to mk him tell me. so he did n i was like.. 'ouhhh.. gd for u..'. den i felt dis 'tinch' in my heart. like WTF ayu?! u shldnt b feelin dis way if ur over him. so obvious iam nt <em>completely</em> over him, <em>YET. </em>which reli sucked</font></p> <p><font size="4">to summarise.. wat im sad abt is nt him gettin to noe other ppl, (coz he seriously nid too, n dis is nt ego, swear). bt him chgin back to his bad old daes, fr bad to worst. i was jz utterly disappointed to hear him drinkin, gettin drunk, n nt goin hm all. he didnt gt to do much of dat wen we were tdgr. nw dat we're apart, he's gone back to dat messed up life of his, which is reli sad to noe</font></p> <p><font size="4">ive tried chgin him to b a beta person, makin him wat i wan him to b, bt i failed.&nbsp;i noe love is nt abt chgin sum1, bt acceptin dem 4 who dey r bt in dis case.. wats a gerl like me to do, seriously?</font></p> <p><font size="4">i reli don give a fuck if he's out wid other gerlz coz i noe, CONFIDENTLY, dat no other gerl cn quite tahan him d way i cn n watever his intentions r for tellin me abt other gerlz, seriously wont bother me, <em>MUCH</em></font></p> <p><font size="4">wat wd mk me real hapi nw is noein him happily attached, which i doubt will ever happen. coz i noe him, n i mean i noe him ar. n i cn safely sae, <em><font color="#ff0000"><u>if he cant mk it wid me, he cant mk it wid anybody else.</u>&nbsp;</font></em>i realised im bein so overly confident which is nt gd bt <u><em><font color="#ff0000">ive neva felt so sure abt anitin dis much in my life</font></em></u></font></p> <p><font size="4">k nw wat makes me hapi&nbsp;was wen my frenz at wk gave me nice praises n sayin tings like.. 'bodoh sakk matair kau!'. k dats so dumb lah bt i feel so2 gd aft hearin all of dem&nbsp;sae dat coz ya i noe he is bodoh! i don nid ppl to tell me, i oredi noe he is!</font></p> <p><font size="4">iam nt sayin dat im gd. i do hv my gd n bad sides too. bt, again,&nbsp;confidently, i&nbsp;noe&nbsp;iam jz <em>TOO</em> gd for him<br>n i doubt.....<br><u>HE'LL EVER FIND A GERL DATS EVEN <em><font color="#ff0000">HALF</font></em> AS GD AS ME</u></font></p> <p><font size="4">ever.</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:5803 2005-02-13T17:17:20Z 2005-02-13T17:18:53Z <table width="468"> <tbody> <tr> <td> <h1 style="MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px; FONT: bold 18px verdana"><font color="#000000" size="2">dis is my current fav song! </font><font color="#000000" size="2">i hv to listen to dis song every dae, a few times. i gt so pumped aft hearin it. jz tks all d troubles away. dis is so my song ar.</font></h1> <h1 style="MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px; FONT: bold 18px verdana"><font color="#ff0000">Since U Been Gone</font></h1></td></tr> <tr> <td> <h2 style="FONT: bold 14px verdana"><font color="#ff0000">by Kelly Clarkson</font></h2></td></tr></tbody></table><font size="4">Here's the thing<br>We started out friends<br>It was cool, but it was all pretend <br>Yeah, yeah, since you been gone<br>You dedicated, you took the time<br>Wasn't long till I called you mine<br>Yeah, yeah, since you been gone<br>And all you'd ever hear me say<br>Is how I picture me with you<br>That's all you'd ever hear me say<br><br>But since you been gone<br>I can breathe for the first time<br>I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah<br>Thanks to you, now I get what I want<br>Since you been gone<br><br>How can I put it, you put me on<br>I even fell for that stupid love song<br>Yeah, yeah, since you been gone<br>How come I'd never hear you say<br>I just wanna be with you<br>Guess you never felt that way<br><br>But since you been gone<br>I can breathe for the first time<br>I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeah<br>Thanks to you, now I get, I get what I want<br>Since you been gone<br><br>You had your chance, you blew it<br>Out of sight, out of mind<br>Shut your mouth, I just can't take it<br>Again and again and again and again <br><br>Since you been gone (since you been gone) <br>I can breathe for the first time<br>I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah<br>Thanks to you (thanks to you)<br>Now I get, I get what I want<br>I can breathe for the first time<br>I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah<br>Thanks to you (thanks to you)<br>Now I get (I get)<br>You should know (you should know) that I get<br>I get what I want<br><br>Since you been gone<br>Since you been gone<br>Since you been gone</font><br clear="all"> <hr align="center" width="100%" size="2"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:5531 2005-02-13T16:42:14Z 2005-02-13T17:16:27Z everybody ard me is so depressed<br />n seein dem all sad mks me sad too lah<br />-sigh-<br /><br />im nt gona pretend to b hapi coz im nt<br />bt den again..<br />im nt gona b all sad coz i jz REFUSE to live my life dat way<br />Life is too short to b unhappy<br />no matter hw sick i feel, i try nt to tink abt it<br />coz d more i tink abt it, d more sucky i feel<br />i noe itz easier said dan done<br />bt i believe itz all up in d head<br />if u set ur mind into smtg u reli wana do, u cn do it<br />i jz hope my gerlz will hang on in der n kip ur head up<br />b strong.<br /><br />Hapi Valentine's Day to all Lovers out der. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ayu_mee:5234 2005-02-06T17:46:22Z 2005-02-06T17:46:22Z collected my makeover photos yest at JB<br />i was pretty hapi at hw it turned out actually<br />luv d make up <br />nt too little or too much<br />itz amazing wat gd make up n lighting cn do to u<br />hah<br />luv hw i look! so im hapi! <br /><br />wk has been reli tiring<br />bt wid d gd company of ppl at wk, life is soo less stresful<br />d gerlz der welcome me wid open arms, which was reli nice<br />n im so amazed at d huge no. of malay gerlz wkg at Tangs<br />a few 'setep' ones ar, 'tgk org mcm ader hutang'<br />bt my gerlz r d friendliest n d best bunch der, thkfully<br />ive learned nt 2 judge a book by itz cover<br />coz d gerlz all look so 'eksyen', bt dey r soooo nt<br />all bising2 n giler2 sot<br />we gt along so fine d mmt we're introduced to each other<br />we do evrytin together, fr sharin food to make up<br />we don even compete for sales, we even help each other out wid it<br />ive no complaints so far except for d long hrs of standing<br /><br />im a rich gerl!<br />nw dat pay is in + ERS, ive gt sum serious shoppin to do<br />ive listed down wat to gt, cant wait!! <br />bt den again, nid to start savin for future trips to Bali wid sis n Aust-Perth wid Sahman<br /><br />so he told me dat Virgin Suicides will b performin at Paradigm on Feb 19th<br />alongside other bands..... <br />n d best ting is, i'll b wkg dat particular sat<br />n ders no freakin way i cn tk leave coz<br />im onli allowed to take 2 weekends off in a mth<br />n ive used up both weekends oredi!!<br />JUST GREAT LAH EH!